dangerously hanging to static life

I said it like hundred times. I do being alone most of my time now. and honestly it was hard. Considering i’m being in a bigger group since v1 days. I do realize, it’s hard for me to adjust being in a group of mediocre thinking people either, which made me seperated from ‘others’ almost every time. Being alone however, made me think a lot more than ever. which is good. Stupid little things comes crawling when i’m alone;

1. what can i do now, is read a lot more. and hopes, pour in more-than-average efforts so i can have a good challenging life i always hope.
2. Being lazy fool who never learns, makes it look like thousand mile adrift from the mission, ilham!
3. Sometimes, anticipation is better than reality. we never knows who’re the real friend.is being close is what it mean by friend/ doubt it.
4. and love; is stupid. makes me and you, weak. wavy seperation, which is always tough; will prove to be a good tonic.
5. Do i really need challenge/ Doubt it. Actually i want a manageble life. Messy workplace with no obligation of schedule isnt for me.Why would i lie.

 Got to do the plan or izham will be crazy.